Lilium Derived from Latin lilia, which may have come from a corrupted pronunciation of a word from an extinct Eastern Mediterranean language Humility, devotion, restored innocence after death
"Lovers used to give these when they were reunited."
[ if he is in there, is it better or worse if he can be reached? if it's possible he'll die unable to be himself again, knowing he's trapped like that? these are maybe things he's considered for himself too, but that's neither here nor there. ]
Yeah. Could be. Even if he can't reply... probably he can hear it.
[this is a very touchy situation and she's aware of that. she doesn't want to talk too much about it, but...well. it's definitely on both of their minds for similar reasons.]
...it's her choice what she wants to do. The most we can do after is listen to her when she needs us.
You're not doing so bad right now, you know. [which is to say that in his own way, cloud's been listening to her and helping her kind of sort her thoughts and feelings.]
[give her a moment to shift to lean her head against his shoulder.]
I know. [he doesn't have to elaborate, exactly, for her to understand what he means by that. it's only been a short time since they've met in the grand scheme of things, but she can still see the difference in how he is now from when they first ran into each other on the street.] I'm grateful for that.
[ i have so many handholding icons for us. i keep finding new ones.
he doesn't know what to do with gratefulness. it feels like he's doing the bare minimum sometimes, even though it's like pulling teeth with himself. it's why it takes him a while to form the words despite the fact it's light-hearted: ]
It's 'cause you guys won't give me any leeway on that stuff.
[ a roundabout way of saying it's because of you ]
[i'm fascinated because from that angle it looks like she's just holding one of his fingers because his hand's massive. but anyway...she doesn't rush him. she tries not to when they have more serious conversations, even when she herself sometimes rushes things because she doesn't want to linger on her own insecurities. so he says that, and roundabout though it may be, it's enough.]
Nope. So looks like you're going to have to keep trying. [equally lighthearted, but a way of saying they aren't going anywhere. she's not going anywhere.]
[one of them has brain problems and one of them is dead so truly, are either of them.
things to not consider.]
...we can go inside whenever you want. I just wanted to be alone for a little while, I think. [being with cloud counts as being alone in this case though.]
[ oh. he doesn't know how he feels about counting as her needing to be alone, because he remembers at least one occasion where she didn't want his presence when she wanted to be alone. and he is kind of glad this isn't like that. ]
... I've got nowhere else I need to be. [ which is to say, however long she needs, he can stay. ]
[the things she's currently feeling aren't things she thinks she might snap at him for. instead, it's wanting to hold onto him (both of them) as tightly as possible while they're here. sending him away right now would be counterproductive, and when she thinks about it, she knows that she'd prefer he stay this time.]
If you're sure. [at least it won't be too long, but it's long enough.]
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residentflorist) wrote2024-06-08 12:51 pm
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Yeah. Could be. Even if he can't reply... probably he can hear it.
[ is that better? if he knows what he's done. ]
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...it's her choice what she wants to do. The most we can do after is listen to her when she needs us.
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You're not doing so bad right now, you know. [which is to say that in his own way, cloud's been listening to her and helping her kind of sort her thoughts and feelings.]
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[ to be better at that kind of thing, he doesn't say, but it is kind of obvious. well, he's trying with a lot of things. ]
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I know. [he doesn't have to elaborate, exactly, for her to understand what he means by that. it's only been a short time since they've met in the grand scheme of things, but she can still see the difference in how he is now from when they first ran into each other on the street.] I'm grateful for that.
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he doesn't know what to do with gratefulness. it feels like he's doing the bare minimum sometimes, even though it's like pulling teeth with himself. it's why it takes him a while to form the words despite the fact it's light-hearted: ]
It's 'cause you guys won't give me any leeway on that stuff.
[ a roundabout way of saying it's because of you ]
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Nope. So looks like you're going to have to keep trying. [equally lighthearted, but a way of saying they aren't going anywhere. she's not going anywhere.]
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huffs, like it's a joke ]
Lucky me. [ it's said like it's sardonic, but there's a hint of relief in there at the hidden reassurance ]
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anyway...she quiets down again, continuing to stay close and keep hold of his hand.]
You'll be fine. [just in general. no matter what, joking or having to deal with something scary like this, cloud will be fine.]
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... You, too.
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things to not consider.]
...we can go inside whenever you want. I just wanted to be alone for a little while, I think. [being with cloud counts as being alone in this case though.]
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... I've got nowhere else I need to be. [ which is to say, however long she needs, he can stay. ]
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If you're sure. [at least it won't be too long, but it's long enough.]