[there's a soft noise of agreement to the first part. "why not", indeed.]

...age, maybe? When you guys have seen as much as you have, you probably learn how to read between the lines and just know. [she appreciates the privacy, but at the same time she sort of knew this was coming eventually. she couldn't exactly hide it forever, as much as she wanted to try.]

I'm not sure of that myself. I've never been able to really find an answer. [...] It's true that Sephiroth...[...mm. well. never mind, she kind of diverts from that to focus on the main problem.] It was recent. Barely a day or two before we came here. And usually when people die, they return to the lifestream. It's where I should have gone, but...I hadn't yet. So maybe that's why?

[she's currently caught in between and to be honest the longer she's here the longer it's freaked her out, and it's also given her time to think "no, i don't want to go yet." being here has been wonderful for meeting new people and spending more time with the people she loves, but worse for thinking about her own fate and what has to be done to stop sephiroth.]