Lilium Derived from Latin lilia, which may have come from a corrupted pronunciation of a word from an extinct Eastern Mediterranean language Humility, devotion, restored innocence after death
"Lovers used to give these when they were reunited."
[it's half-intrigue and half-amusement that she does not move his hand from her butt but it's fine. cloud's not being weird about it so she lets this happen, even when she tilts her head into the kiss to her jaw with a low, satisfied noise.
right. focus. be the braincell. you're a woman of integrity. you know how to apply limits. you have full control here.
you...have a very cute, kissable blond man under you, what the fuck do you mean things have to slow down ugggggh. she still stands by that they won't go that far because it's way, way too fast. but cloud says he doesn't want to stop, exactly, and she's letting her mind wander a little. they are doing a lot. that is true. but...but.]
Technically, there are things we can keep doing that aren't...you know. [actually having sex. she is not shy about saying it, she just thinks cloud would fluster like a baby virgin. they aren't kissing anymore, so she rests her cheek against his chest and shoulder.] But we're going a little fast, I get it. I guess I just got carried away because I've wanted to kiss you for a little while, and this week really...really kept us busy.
[they are both still healing from stabs and burns, but she has been careful for a reason.]
[ they're not kissing anymore so his hand kind of drifts back up to the small of her back when she rests on him, because they are not doing... you know. she's not entirely wrong that he'd get a little flustered, but he's not flustered by the concept of sex or anything like that. he's not even flustered or surprised when it comes to someone wanting him like that. but. at the same time it is different, if it's aerith, and if it might happen for real. so maybe a little unsure. a bit of trepidation.
not today is doing a lot of work to squash it. ]
It's been a rough week. But... don't worry about that. We haven't gotten carried away yet. [ he doesn't want her to think she went too fast--at least not on her own. he was going along with it. anyway. yet, was the point. although. he shouldn't ask, but he's curious, and-- ] Things?
[not today really is doing a lot of the work here, so that's nice. she doesn't mind that his hand moves to her back, and her fingers brush over his cheek lightly from her position on top of him with a little noise of agreement. yeah. yeah, it sure has been a rough week.]
And I'm pretty sure you wouldn't let us anyway. [a little quip, because she knows how cloud is. they're figuring it out together and she does think he'd pump the brakes on this if he really wanted to. but she hears him questions "things" and she tilts her head to look up at him, still grinning a little mischievously.]
But yeah, things. Wanna hear 'em? [now she really is just teasing him, but this is fun for her. she kind of likes the idea of walking cloud through things.]
[ he hums in agreement, because. yeah. he is very good at saying no. it is his favorite activity.
but. this follow-up is kind of a trap, probably? cloud tucks some of aerith's hair behind her ear and raises an eyebrow. a trap or a challenge both and cloud decides to just. go for it. why not. ]
... Yeah, I do. [ he thinks probably it will be embarrassing, but he does want to know. it's like when he was trying to get her list of little things out of her earlier. he likes knowing what she wants outright. ]
[it's a little bit of a trap, but it's fine. she's not going to let anything bad happen here, and when he moves her hair behind her ear she tilts her head to go with the motion. alpha week really is helping here, if only because it's helping cloud go for it while aerith herself is more comfortable following along with his pace.]
Well...[and here, her fingers trail down his jaw, a slow line over this throat and a little down his chest.] I do have two perfectly good hands. But that still might be a little bit overwhelming for you if you've never done this before. Or...you can try on me?
[she really offers this because she thinks this might be where cloud balks and she's fine with that, too. it's all about seeing what he's thinking.]
[ alpha week is truly doing. so much work. in making him less hesitant.
he follows her finger as it goes down, a little distracted, so when she finishes talking he has a frown like he doesn't quite get it immediately. let him put it together as he thinks. hands... not doing it before... on her--
oh. ]
Oh. [ he says it bluntly, a little too loud, and then he's blushing lightly as he looks at her hands more, back to speaking more quietly; ] Oh. You mean...? [ okay well he hadn't been thinking about it, and it's not unappealing, but she's not wrong that the idea is a little overwhelming, letting her touch--or--see--
but then there's the other option, and that's... less overwhelming. interesting, even. he lets his eyes trail down what he can see of aerith's body. his face is still a little flushed. on me, she said. ]
... I... [ he licks at his lips, feeling stupid. ] Your hands are doing plenty. But I... [ he pets over her back, looking away from her eyes ] Wouldn't mind trying? On you.
[she does kind of jump a little in surprise at the sudden volume, but it's not like anyone else can hear them. cloud's quick to quiet down again and she seems to be waiting for him to work that through his brain and decide how he feels about it.
she would love to know why the idea of touching her is somehow less overwhelming, but...she would really attribute it to cloud being shy. it makes sense. and while aerith isn't really shy it's nont like she'd be doing or offering this for anyone else either. he can probably feel the rise and fall of her back as she breathes, fingers still tracing little patterns on his shoulder and chest where she can reach, and she watches him look away even when he agrees with her.]
...okay. Then we can let you try and see if you like it. ["see if you like it" as if she's not propositioning he touch her wherever he feels like.] Don't think too hard about it. Whatever you think feels right.
[because they both know she will, actually, coursecorrect him if he's extremely wrong here.]
[ it's about being perceived, aerith, this should not be that hard to figure out. (yeah he's shy.) ]
... You don't have to say if. [ in this case, it seems kind of obvious. but it is probably funny that she is giving him whatever he feels is right range and for now he keeps one hand tracing up and down her spine. something about feeling her breathe on top of him is... nice. the other one is moving to...
the back of her head, actually, gently tugging the ribbon. ]
Can I?
[ sorry that he gets free range to touch and the first thing he wants to do is run his hand through her hair ]
[she shrugs because she's not going to assume anything? but also she does suppose it's fairly obvious he's interested...she's not rushing, relaxed on top of him and still letting her fingers drag and walk over him while his hand runs up her spine. it's a nice feeling, a grounding touch, and it's something to calm her down a little. by the time his hand reaches her hair though, she looks at him with nothing short of fondness.
leave it to this guy to go for the most innocent thing. but it's sweet in its own way, so she nods.]
Mmhm. Did say whatever you want. [well, not quite, but it was implied.]
[ what is he going to do, go for undressing her immediately. no. because her hair is magic when he tugs the ribbon this somehow undoes the whole braid, thank you jrpg logic, but he's very careful when he places it over somewhere so the ribbon isn't lost in. whatever they choose to do here. or, well, he chooses to do.
mmmm. it's alpha week she can have this: ]
I want you. [ maybe a little quieter, one hand still rubbing against her spine and the other one brushing through her hair now. because he can? but, also. he knows her, so. ] You gonna tell me what you like, or do I have to find out by myself?
[goodbye ribbon, hello long pretty hair. jrpg magic means that there are no tangles, it's just clean, soft waves and his fingers can run through it fairly easily, even as she somehow lays flatter against him and tilts her head into his fingers. that's nice, thank you.]
Think it might be easier to tell you what I wouldn't like. [because again, biases. she does not think there's much cloud could do that she wouldn't want from him, but she is also aware that probably doesn't help him, even if she's rolling her spine up into the touch of his other hand.] This is a nice start.
[ she leans her head into his fingers and she's rolling into the other pets and it's... cute. it's very cute, so he leans to kiss her again, soft and brief. she's pretty.
(there is a zack voice arguing about beautiful in the back of his head and that helps no one so shut the fuck up zack's ghost) ]
[can you imagine the ghost of zack just critiquing cloud the whole time he's actually doing this. extremely funny. anyway, she does not know he's hearing quips from her ex-boyfriend and instead meets him for the kiss even with her eyes still half-closed.]
Don't be too rough right now. [she. probably should say in general but also she's not really thinking much about it.] You're a fast learner. You tell me.
[this is bullying because she wants cloud to be decisive even though she really could make his life easier and at least give him access to her boobs to start, but it's fine.]
[ she's on top of him what the hell is he supposed to touch. her boobs are hidden away. pressed against HIS boobs. :/
also cloud's inner zack voice is not that powerful but zack wouldn't critique he would give helpful encouragements, which would be worse ]
Wasn't planning to be. [ rough, he means, but maybe she can tell. i don't know what kind of dress she's wearing but is there like. a back zipper. is this a slip on. he is still petting her back so this is how he finds out i guess. gently scritches her scalp ]
[HE COULD MOVE HER? it's probably a cute little dress with a tie in the back near the nape of her neck, easy to reach though now probably hidden by her hair. NOT THE SCRITCHES, it means her eyes are shutting fully and it takes her a moment to think of what she wants to do.]
Not your style, I know. [she can always teach him later, but for now she's well aware a slow speed is good for him. he can pet her back and she wriggles on him a little for comfort. it's the movement that makes her rub two braincells together though.]
...kinda hard for you to do anything else like this, huh? [even if...she likes being on top :(]
[yeah here's the thing, once they actually slowed down she stopped being ready to jump him and has settled on cozy cuddles and nice pets so they really kinda shot themselves in the foot here. or not? because this is just as desirable for her, honestly, so she just grumbles a little and snuggles closer into his hands.]
[ there is a soft huff of a laugh she can probably feel really well the way she's placed. again, it's not like he minds. he likes this. and, well. he is probably less sexual than aerith by default im sorry to say so calming down is very easy for him. petting is nice. ]
One of those little things? [ he still has to make fun of her, though. pet. ] Alright.
[she can, and it does make her smile even with her eyes shut. her hands are still loosely around him, index finger trailing over his neck and there's a moment of silence as she thinks.]
...we do have a busy day tomorrow, even if it's just watching them. So it's probably better to relax for now and recover from everything else this week. But don't think you're off the hook yet, mister. Later.
[ she's touched it enough it is probably obvious by now that his neck is a little sensitive, and he tilts into the touch ]
Later. [ he's saying it in a considering tone, because that is something he will think about ] Sure. You should probably lie down more anyway.
[ for her wounds, but also just him agreeing he doesn't mind. and. alpha week he is kissing the top of her head being real soft over here it's fine she can bedtime on him ]
I already am? [don't just think it's funny, you monster. but there's a pleased little sound when he kisses her head because yeah, she's still kind of weak to him being soft. what of it.] Just for a little while.
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right. focus. be the braincell. you're a woman of integrity. you know how to apply limits. you have full control here.
you...have a very cute, kissable blond man under you, what the fuck do you mean things have to slow down ugggggh. she still stands by that they won't go that far because it's way, way too fast. but cloud says he doesn't want to stop, exactly, and she's letting her mind wander a little. they are doing a lot. that is true. but...but.]
Technically, there are things we can keep doing that aren't...you know. [actually having sex. she is not shy about saying it, she just thinks cloud would fluster like a baby virgin. they aren't kissing anymore, so she rests her cheek against his chest and shoulder.] But we're going a little fast, I get it. I guess I just got carried away because I've wanted to kiss you for a little while, and this week really...really kept us busy.
[they are both still healing from stabs and burns, but she has been careful for a reason.]
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not today is doing a lot of work to squash it. ]
It's been a rough week. But... don't worry about that. We haven't gotten carried away yet. [ he doesn't want her to think she went too fast--at least not on her own. he was going along with it. anyway. yet, was the point. although. he shouldn't ask, but he's curious, and-- ] Things?
[ things, multiple? ]
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And I'm pretty sure you wouldn't let us anyway. [a little quip, because she knows how cloud is. they're figuring it out together and she does think he'd pump the brakes on this if he really wanted to. but she hears him questions "things" and she tilts her head to look up at him, still grinning a little mischievously.]
But yeah, things. Wanna hear 'em? [now she really is just teasing him, but this is fun for her. she kind of likes the idea of walking cloud through things.]
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but. this follow-up is kind of a trap, probably? cloud tucks some of aerith's hair behind her ear and raises an eyebrow. a trap or a challenge both and cloud decides to just. go for it. why not. ]
... Yeah, I do. [ he thinks probably it will be embarrassing, but he does want to know. it's like when he was trying to get her list of little things out of her earlier. he likes knowing what she wants outright. ]
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Well...[and here, her fingers trail down his jaw, a slow line over this throat and a little down his chest.] I do have two perfectly good hands. But that still might be a little bit overwhelming for you if you've never done this before. Or...you can try on me?
[she really offers this because she thinks this might be where cloud balks and she's fine with that, too. it's all about seeing what he's thinking.]
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he follows her finger as it goes down, a little distracted, so when she finishes talking he has a frown like he doesn't quite get it immediately. let him put it together as he thinks. hands... not doing it before... on her--
oh. ]
Oh. [ he says it bluntly, a little too loud, and then he's blushing lightly as he looks at her hands more, back to speaking more quietly; ] Oh. You mean...? [ okay well he hadn't been thinking about it, and it's not unappealing, but she's not wrong that the idea is a little overwhelming, letting her touch--or--see--
but then there's the other option, and that's... less overwhelming. interesting, even. he lets his eyes trail down what he can see of aerith's body. his face is still a little flushed. on me, she said. ]
... I... [ he licks at his lips, feeling stupid. ] Your hands are doing plenty. But I... [ he pets over her back, looking away from her eyes ] Wouldn't mind trying? On you.
[ wording it is actually harder damn ]
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she would love to know why the idea of touching her is somehow less overwhelming, but...she would really attribute it to cloud being shy. it makes sense. and while aerith isn't really shy it's nont like she'd be doing or offering this for anyone else either. he can probably feel the rise and fall of her back as she breathes, fingers still tracing little patterns on his shoulder and chest where she can reach, and she watches him look away even when he agrees with her.]
...okay. Then we can let you try and see if you like it. ["see if you like it" as if she's not propositioning he touch her wherever he feels like.] Don't think too hard about it. Whatever you think feels right.
[because they both know she will, actually, coursecorrect him if he's extremely wrong here.]
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... You don't have to say if. [ in this case, it seems kind of obvious. but it is probably funny that she is giving him whatever he feels is right range and for now he keeps one hand tracing up and down her spine. something about feeling her breathe on top of him is... nice. the other one is moving to...
the back of her head, actually, gently tugging the ribbon. ]
Can I?
[ sorry that he gets free range to touch and the first thing he wants to do is run his hand through her hair ]
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leave it to this guy to go for the most innocent thing. but it's sweet in its own way, so she nods.]
Mmhm. Did say whatever you want. [well, not quite, but it was implied.]
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mmmm. it's alpha week she can have this: ]
I want you. [ maybe a little quieter, one hand still rubbing against her spine and the other one brushing through her hair now. because he can? but, also. he knows her, so. ] You gonna tell me what you like, or do I have to find out by myself?
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Think it might be easier to tell you what I wouldn't like. [because again, biases. she does not think there's much cloud could do that she wouldn't want from him, but she is also aware that probably doesn't help him, even if she's rolling her spine up into the touch of his other hand.] This is a nice start.
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(there is a zack voice arguing about beautiful in the back of his head and that helps no one so shut the fuck up zack's ghost) ]
Alright. So what wouldn't you like?
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Don't be too rough right now. [she. probably should say in general but also she's not really thinking much about it.] You're a fast learner. You tell me.
[this is bullying because she wants cloud to be decisive even though she really could make his life easier and at least give him access to her boobs to start, but it's fine.]
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also cloud's inner zack voice is not that powerful but zack wouldn't critique he would give helpful encouragements, which would be worse ]
Wasn't planning to be. [ rough, he means, but maybe she can tell. i don't know what kind of dress she's wearing but is there like. a back zipper. is this a slip on. he is still petting her back so this is how he finds out i guess. gently scritches her scalp ]
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Not your style, I know. [she can always teach him later, but for now she's well aware a slow speed is good for him. he can pet her back and she wriggles on him a little for comfort. it's the movement that makes her rub two braincells together though.]
...kinda hard for you to do anything else like this, huh? [even if...she likes being on top :(]
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A little. [ petpet scritch scritch but: ] You could sit up. Or we can stay like this.
[ he doesn't ... mind if they just devolve back to cuddling if she like this either, is the thing. they've got time to try out other stuff. ]
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Mm...nope. I think I'm gonna stay riiiiight here.
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One of those little things? [ he still has to make fun of her, though. pet. ] Alright.
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...we do have a busy day tomorrow, even if it's just watching them. So it's probably better to relax for now and recover from everything else this week. But don't think you're off the hook yet, mister. Later.
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Later. [ he's saying it in a considering tone, because that is something he will think about ] Sure. You should probably lie down more anyway.
[ for her wounds, but also just him agreeing he doesn't mind. and. alpha week he is kissing the top of her head being real soft over here it's fine she can bedtime on him ]
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