It's complicated, isn't it? We all wanted something better for everyone, but... there was tragedy that could have been prevented.
[ robin doesn't blame anyone. it isn't anyone's fault, as aerith said, and she'd be hard-pressed to lift the knife that needed to be wielded when there are others around. she has that much self-awareness, but it's still terrible to witness. ]
Miss Ashlyn shouldn't have had to suffer like that, but they have so much on their shoulders on that side. It's heartbreaking to me from all sides.
I think it's fine to have wanted something else to have happened even if it no longer could have happened. I know I did.
It is. But it's been complicated ever since Boothill was used to kill Aventurine against his own will when the monster first came to life. [it's been complicated and cruel and unfair from the beginning, week after week of watching friends turn on friends when it was clear they did not want this.]
It's going to continue being frustrating for us, I think, the longer we have to be here knowing we can't help them over there. But we're needed here, too. For whatever that may look like. [she nods though.] I wanted a better ending for her. For several of them, really. So I guess all we can do now is be here when she arrives and try to help her through it, along with whoever else comes tomorrow.
[it's all rolled into one at this rate. being here is nicer, of course, but sometimes you look at the bars of the graveyard cage and rattle them because you want to get back to people who are so upset.]
Keep moving. That's what we have to tell ourselves, even when it feels impossible. [but robin says something that makes aerith think, and she grows quiet for a moment as she ponders on the question.]
I prefer a peaceful one when possible, but I know it's not always possible. I'd like the cult disestablished, at the very least.
[ she has very specific wishes for how she wants the cult to end, but she cares more about how it ends for them than for the cult, if she had to choose. ]
Happiness is more difficult to come by than peace, but if people could get even a little piece of some kind of happiness to along with some peace... that'd be nice, too.
Both good goals, I think. It's ideal for this to end peacefully, but given what the cult has done to all of us I can understand some people who may not wish to resolve this without a little violence thrown in. [a few people are already yelling about beating up the cult.]
Do you think that peace at least can bring some guaranteed happiness? Even a small amount. I guess it depends what peace looks like. So many of us have a lot of difficult situations to think about back home, too.
[ that's a battle she already knows is foregone. she understands their sentiment. she prefers a more unhanded type of vengeance, but she's fine as long as things end for the better. ]
I don't think peace can guarantee happiness, but I think it can give a starting point for it. Happiness is different for everyone, so at the very least, I'd like for people to have the space to think they can reach for it.
[nodding along...this all makes sense to her. as usual, her favorite thing about robin is how easy it is to talk to her and know that their opinions are similar, or that robin can phrase things in a way that makes the words make more sense.]
There are some people here I want to see happy more than anything. Or at least start to find a way to gain some peace after everything that's happened. If we can succeed here and do even that much for them, then all of our work will be worth it to me.
[ their similar wavelengths is a one of the many reasons why robin missed aerith so much every week she was still alive after aerith died. ]
I don't know how the dust will settle afterwards, but it will surely be better than now. That much we can look forward to. We will save ourselves, and in doing so, it can lead to that happiness you want for others.
[ although robin hopes aerith will seek happiness for herself, too, since she doesn't know aerith DIES in ff7. ]
It will be. Even if things have to get worse before then, I believe we'll get to the other side okay. And then things can only go up from there. [...but yes...the happiness...of potentially being dead...]
There are a few things I want to secure before we leave. Even if I don't know what that looks like yet. Things I won't compromise on. But that's still okay, isn't it?
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[ robin doesn't blame anyone. it isn't anyone's fault, as aerith said, and she'd be hard-pressed to lift the knife that needed to be wielded when there are others around. she has that much self-awareness, but it's still terrible to witness. ]
Miss Ashlyn shouldn't have had to suffer like that, but they have so much on their shoulders on that side. It's heartbreaking to me from all sides.
I think it's fine to have wanted something else to have happened even if it no longer could have happened. I know I did.
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It's going to continue being frustrating for us, I think, the longer we have to be here knowing we can't help them over there. But we're needed here, too. For whatever that may look like. [she nods though.] I wanted a better ending for her. For several of them, really. So I guess all we can do now is be here when she arrives and try to help her through it, along with whoever else comes tomorrow.
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she nods. ]
That's the best way we can face forward, look to who will be coming and help them how we can. It keeps all of us moving, one way or another.
For the ending we want for all of this.
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Keep moving. That's what we have to tell ourselves, even when it feels impossible. [but robin says something that makes aerith think, and she grows quiet for a moment as she ponders on the question.]
Robin? What kind of ending do you wish to see?
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[ she has very specific wishes for how she wants the cult to end, but she cares more about how it ends for them than for the cult, if she had to choose. ]
Happiness is more difficult to come by than peace, but if people could get even a little piece of some kind of happiness to along with some peace... that'd be nice, too.
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Do you think that peace at least can bring some guaranteed happiness? Even a small amount. I guess it depends what peace looks like. So many of us have a lot of difficult situations to think about back home, too.
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[ that's a battle she already knows is foregone. she understands their sentiment. she prefers a more unhanded type of vengeance, but she's fine as long as things end for the better. ]
I don't think peace can guarantee happiness, but I think it can give a starting point for it. Happiness is different for everyone, so at the very least, I'd like for people to have the space to think they can reach for it.
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There are some people here I want to see happy more than anything. Or at least start to find a way to gain some peace after everything that's happened. If we can succeed here and do even that much for them, then all of our work will be worth it to me.
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I don't know how the dust will settle afterwards, but it will surely be better than now. That much we can look forward to. We will save ourselves, and in doing so, it can lead to that happiness you want for others.
[ although robin hopes aerith will seek happiness for herself, too, since she doesn't know aerith DIES in ff7. ]
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It will be. Even if things have to get worse before then, I believe we'll get to the other side okay. And then things can only go up from there. [...but yes...the happiness...of potentially being dead...]
There are a few things I want to secure before we leave. Even if I don't know what that looks like yet. Things I won't compromise on. But that's still okay, isn't it?