Lilium Derived from Latin lilia, which may have come from a corrupted pronunciation of a word from an extinct Eastern Mediterranean language Humility, devotion, restored innocence after death
"Lovers used to give these when they were reunited."
Of course I did. [ thought week is destroying them with these because he ignores the teasing to be very upfront there. also dont FUCKING advent children me. ] I would. Every time.
[ like he knows he didnt when she DIED HERE but he was busy dying elsewhere he is giving his angst about it a pass so she doesnt hear him mope mentally ]
anyway it's just...tiny hearts in her eyes, and a faint glow around her. something soft and happy and grateful.]
I never expected you to. [a quiet admission. because they barely knew each other the first time, and she had willingly traded her freedom for marlene's safety. she knew what that meant. and yet cloud still came for her.] But I'll never forget how happy I was that you did.
[ the heart eyes are wild, and he stares back at her intensely, because for him it was a little... infuriating, the first time. of course they would. why wouldn't they? it was their fault. even though elmyra tried to convince him otherwise, he would've gone even if barret and tifa weren't coming along. ]
... You went through all that trouble for me first.
I told you. I wanted to help you however I could. You, and everyone, and the rest of the planet. But you've always been...
[special? her thoughts seem to trail off.]
You would have come for me no matter what I said or did. [she seems a little more sure of this now.] And that's... [well. she does not get to say what it is, because cloud is shown something convenient, up until he hears himself calling aerith's name.]
[ he doesn't know what to do with special, so it's a good thing the memshare distracts him. he remembers this, though he hadn't know what aerith was going through on her side, just that he and tifa ran to find her.
he holds her a little closer. ]
... It's not just me. [ he's not trying to dismiss her feeling or their connection, he would never, but he thinks maybe this is important: ] Tifa and the others too. We'd all come for you, no matter what.
[she's kind of tucked up against his chest, arms around his neck and cheek against his shoulder. she remembers this, and even seeing it now she feels the weird sort of tightness in her chest, the anxious feeling of being left behind.
"we found you", tifa had said, and it had meant a lot to her back then, too. "you" is interchangeable sometimes. sometimes she means "you our group of friends", and sometimes she means "you cloud strife." this is a little of both.
she knows they all came to the altar, too, after she left to walk through the forest. just another little drop of guilt, but still something to consider.]
I know. [now.] Sometimes it's just a little hard to shake those things off. But all of you mean so much to me that it gets easier when I think about it.
[ ... he strokes her back lightly as he holds her. ]
You're important to us. [ he pauses, and a little shyly despite kissing her and saying as much earlier: ] To me. Not just for the planet. But... because it's you.
[given the way she doesn't reply immediately it is questionable if she knew that, actually. her arms tighten around him a little with the words and she settles there with her eyes closed.]
...I meant what I said back in Cosmo Canyon, you know. About how everything up until now has been worth it because of all of you. [for...loving me as myself. that's what this is, isn't it?]
[ maybe he can only say this much because she's not asking out loud and because she's not looking at him, or maybe because it's not just about himself, but. it also stands for himself? either way. he means it. ]
[it's good enough. she's quiet, curled up into him and just letting the words rotate in her head to settle in her chest before there's a soft huff of laughter.]
Thank you. Sorry, this was kind of silly, wasn't it? [not really. she's still young and there are insecurities and weaknesses she buries so far down under the weight of handling everyone else that when she tries to address them she feels at odds about them even if they are normal insecurities to have.] Kinda ruined the mood.
[ what will really ruin the mood is cloud's initial the mood? thought, because to him it started as talking about feelings (light) and kept going into feelings (deep) so it's. about the same? King of Romance here.
he shakes his head anyway ]
I want to know those things too. The stuff that worries you.
[ king of romance redemption is that his follow up thought to that is I want to be there for you. ]
[she opens an eye to stare up at him because yes? the mood? though she supposes it's nice that he was fine just talking about feelings for once.]
I'm trying. [she says that much, and it's maybe the only admission that she has a harder time, sometimes, voicing her fears to him. but she wants to, and hearing that thought gets a smile from her.] It helps that you're good at listening.
[not always great at actually talking or offering solutions, but there have been a lot of times in recent history cloud has just listened to aerith talk about less than fun things and has quietly supported her. it's more than she's had before and it's something that keeps her happy.]
You're not hard to listen to. [ there's people or times where he admittedly gets overwhelmed with too much talking (chadley), but listening to aerith has never felt like that, even when she was being a bit of a whirlwind. and this is also his way of being a little apologetic that he knows he's not... great... at the talking part. ]
Sweet of you to say. [she says it in a tone that says she's not sure she buys it but she'll let it slide. and speaking of slide, one hand slides up to cup his cheek again so she can kiss him slowly and briefly.]
[given the way her hand slides to the back of his neck again and her mouth's on his the answer is "a long time." they really are not going to eat ye because kissing is happening. this will happen a lot because it is a novelty. both of you are terrible.]
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[ like he knows he didnt when she DIED HERE but he was busy dying elsewhere he is giving his angst about it a pass so she doesnt hear him mope mentally ]
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anyway it's just...tiny hearts in her eyes, and a faint glow around her. something soft and happy and grateful.]
I never expected you to. [a quiet admission. because they barely knew each other the first time, and she had willingly traded her freedom for marlene's safety. she knew what that meant. and yet cloud still came for her.] But I'll never forget how happy I was that you did.
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... You went through all that trouble for me first.
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[special? her thoughts seem to trail off.]
You would have come for me no matter what I said or did. [she seems a little more sure of this now.] And that's... [well. she does not get to say what it is, because cloud is shown something convenient, up until he hears himself calling aerith's name.]
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he holds her a little closer. ]
... It's not just me. [ he's not trying to dismiss her feeling or their connection, he would never, but he thinks maybe this is important: ] Tifa and the others too. We'd all come for you, no matter what.
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"we found you", tifa had said, and it had meant a lot to her back then, too. "you" is interchangeable sometimes. sometimes she means "you our group of friends", and sometimes she means "you cloud strife." this is a little of both.
she knows they all came to the altar, too, after she left to walk through the forest. just another little drop of guilt, but still something to consider.]
I know. [now.] Sometimes it's just a little hard to shake those things off. But all of you mean so much to me that it gets easier when I think about it.
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You're important to us. [ he pauses, and a little shyly despite kissing her and saying as much earlier: ] To me. Not just for the planet. But... because it's you.
[ do you know that? ]
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...I meant what I said back in Cosmo Canyon, you know. About how everything up until now has been worth it because of all of you. [for...loving me as myself. that's what this is, isn't it?]
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[ maybe he can only say this much because she's not asking out loud and because she's not looking at him, or maybe because it's not just about himself, but. it also stands for himself? either way. he means it. ]
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Thank you. Sorry, this was kind of silly, wasn't it? [not really. she's still young and there are insecurities and weaknesses she buries so far down under the weight of handling everyone else that when she tries to address them she feels at odds about them even if they are normal insecurities to have.] Kinda ruined the mood.
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he shakes his head anyway ]
I want to know those things too. The stuff that worries you.
[ king of romance redemption is that his follow up thought to that is I want to be there for you. ]
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I'm trying. [she says that much, and it's maybe the only admission that she has a harder time, sometimes, voicing her fears to him. but she wants to, and hearing that thought gets a smile from her.] It helps that you're good at listening.
[not always great at actually talking or offering solutions, but there have been a lot of times in recent history cloud has just listened to aerith talk about less than fun things and has quietly supported her. it's more than she's had before and it's something that keeps her happy.]
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You're not hard to listen to. [ there's people or times where he admittedly gets overwhelmed with too much talking (chadley), but listening to aerith has never felt like that, even when she was being a bit of a whirlwind. and this is also his way of being a little apologetic that he knows he's not... great... at the talking part. ]
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Sweet of you to say. [she says it in a tone that says she's not sure she buys it but she'll let it slide. and speaking of slide, one hand slides up to cup his cheek again so she can kiss him slowly and briefly.]
...let's stay here a while. [longer picnic.]
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Sure. Long as you want. [ they have not taken a single bite of food and they still won't because he is kissing her again thank you ]
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