Digitalis Old English folklore said that foxes wore the flowers on their paws to silence movement and stealthily stalk prey. Healing, pain, insincerity, insecurity
[hrrrrrgh. she's managed to say this to a few people by now, but it's still always...difficult. so she doesn't continue immediately as she thinks. the emotional feedback is currently a little anxious and a little annoyed and a little frustrated and a little sad. very fun.]
Yeah. The difference is they're still alive and I'm...kinda not.
[ The vibe is very much 'not another one'. His outward expression doesn't change much if at all, aside the obvious pause in the air. He just frowns a little bit, but the emotionshare does betray a slight sense of upset to hear this. ]
...Then we best get you to the ideal outcome you can get, yeah?
[yeah surprise, sorry daan. this happens. she's nodding to that though, just a little.]
I'd like that, yeah. [she says it lightly but there are little tendrils of stress under the usual cheer of her personality.] There may still be options available. I've spoken to a few people, and I know Yuffie has a wish and stuff, but...[she's not going to assume all of these things will work, or will be used for her. so it's about finding alternates to save herself.]
Going back to the exact time would at least get us away from Sephiroth long enough he wouldn't realize I was back yet.
[this is such a bad joke but also, she's tired. do you ever just get murdered by a man with long hair driven mad only to come here and then also be murdered in a similar way by a man with long hair drive mad. wild.]
It really is essentially like saying "hey you have a week to figure out how you want the rest of your life to go", and that kind of pressure isn't easy for anyone. [she's just yours to having to make quick decisions lately.]
Even if you don't think it's a good one, maybe it doesn't hurt to explore ideas in general.
Sounds to me like everyone's got it plenty under control, to be honest...
[ He doesn't know where to even begin with the machine stuff and as far as the rocks go, he's got no other new ideas than what was all preseented already. ]
Maybe. But at the same time it can't hurt to think about things you might want and see if we can incorporate those. Even if it's just stuff you don't want for yourself, but for someone else.
[she thinks daan has made at least some bonds here that perhaps he cares about.]
[ If world travel is a thing and Marina can get away from it all with Rondo, permanently, then that seems good to him. And everyone else getting their time stuff sorted out, that's fine too. ]
But if we're able to afford getting a bit more wiggle room than being returned exactly to the moment we were taken from, then... I think I'll at least want to wrap up some business in Rondon.
That's not a bad start. I'm sure you aren't the only one who doesn't want to go back right to the exact moment. For you then...it would be going back a little, right?
[ He frowns. The emotionshare here is conflicted, torn, like just the process of going down this rabbit hole of thinking tears open scabbed wounds, barely-held together stitches.
If he were to go back, how far could he go? Could he return to before whenever the Baron killed both himself and his wife, try desperately to stop it? But then he might be considered a deserter of the war, which comes with its own slew of problems. If he was just returned to the beginning of Prehevil, he would just have to relive those three days again. If he was returned right between those two events, he... he can't say with certainty that he wouldn't go back regardless. ]
I don't know, I still have to... figure that out too.
Sorry. I didn't mean to pry. [because it's not her business, she's just worried. as she said. she knows it's been a long chain of awful events for him, and she doesn't necessarily like that timing may not even change too much unless it's so specific for him.]
I know we don't have much left now, but we do have time. There's time to take a little for yourself to think things through. Weigh the pros and cons, and try to think of how it may turn out.
Just making sure. [the vibe is that she deeply respects his privacy but always wants to tread the fine line of making sure she's not crossing his boundaries asking questions.] But I'm glad to hear that much.
[there's a little pause then.]
If you won't let me worry, can I at least make you a drink while we're here?
You can't, no. [she will just admit that. aerith always worries about the people she loves, that is just a fact.] Give me a base, and I'll make you something good! Unless you want me to try my hand at an old fashioned?
It tends to be uneventful aside from the curses flying around.
[ He says but he's lying, the emotionshare is full of dislike. He absently chases any signs of black wisps and scrawls over his body, particularly the arms, like he wants to disperse them before they have a chance to form words. ]
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Oh?
[ No guarantees that he'll like understand anything but it's just open-ended enough for him to ask. ]
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Yeah. The difference is they're still alive and I'm...kinda not.
[hopefully he can at least understand that.]
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...Then we best get you to the ideal outcome you can get, yeah?
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I'd like that, yeah. [she says it lightly but there are little tendrils of stress under the usual cheer of her personality.] There may still be options available. I've spoken to a few people, and I know Yuffie has a wish and stuff, but...[she's not going to assume all of these things will work, or will be used for her. so it's about finding alternates to save herself.]
Going back to the exact time would at least get us away from Sephiroth long enough he wouldn't realize I was back yet.
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He really is a massive thorn in your side, huh...
[ Go AWAY!!! ]
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[this is such a bad joke but also, she's tired. do you ever just get murdered by a man with long hair driven mad only to come here and then also be murdered in a similar way by a man with long hair drive mad. wild.]
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[ He lets her have this bit of dark humour, it's not like he doesn't engage in it every now and then himself. ]
...Sounds like we have quite the freedom with how to use the rocks. We'll solidify it later, but you should use them.
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[she's not opposed to using the rocks in a way that includes maybe saving herself, but she's interested in everyone's options and opinions.]
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[ It's so much and yet so simple and yet, and yet, and yet. ]
Everyone else has got me beat to good ideas and suggestions.
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Even if you don't think it's a good one, maybe it doesn't hurt to explore ideas in general.
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[ He doesn't know where to even begin with the machine stuff and as far as the rocks go, he's got no other new ideas than what was all preseented already. ]
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[she thinks daan has made at least some bonds here that perhaps he cares about.]
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It's fine. Already got that covered.
[ If world travel is a thing and Marina can get away from it all with Rondo, permanently, then that seems good to him. And everyone else getting their time stuff sorted out, that's fine too. ]
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If you're sure. [...] I just want to make sure you'll still be a little okay when we're all apart. Guess I'm just kinda worried.
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But if we're able to afford getting a bit more wiggle room than being returned exactly to the moment we were taken from, then... I think I'll at least want to wrap up some business in Rondon.
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That's not a bad start. I'm sure you aren't the only one who doesn't want to go back right to the exact moment. For you then...it would be going back a little, right?
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[ He shakes his head. ]
No. Sending me back in time is...
[ He frowns. The emotionshare here is conflicted, torn, like just the process of going down this rabbit hole of thinking tears open scabbed wounds, barely-held together stitches.
If he were to go back, how far could he go? Could he return to before whenever the Baron killed both himself and his wife, try desperately to stop it? But then he might be considered a deserter of the war, which comes with its own slew of problems. If he was just returned to the beginning of Prehevil, he would just have to relive those three days again. If he was returned right between those two events, he... he can't say with certainty that he wouldn't go back regardless. ]
I don't know, I still have to... figure that out too.
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Sorry. I didn't mean to pry. [because it's not her business, she's just worried. as she said. she knows it's been a long chain of awful events for him, and she doesn't necessarily like that timing may not even change too much unless it's so specific for him.]
I know we don't have much left now, but we do have time. There's time to take a little for yourself to think things through. Weigh the pros and cons, and try to think of how it may turn out.
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[ Prying. ]
...I have been, don't you worry about that.
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[there's a little pause then.]
If you won't let me worry, can I at least make you a drink while we're here?
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I don't think I can stop you from worrying. [ Is Aerith ever not worried about something? ] But sure, I'd like to see what you can make.
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[ She can try that old-fashioned or she can end up making him a completely different something. He'll try it regardless. ]
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Other than the ears, how's today so far? [just...mental check-in.]
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It tends to be uneventful aside from the curses flying around.
[ He says but he's lying, the emotionshare is full of dislike. He absently chases any signs of black wisps and scrawls over his body, particularly the arms, like he wants to disperse them before they have a chance to form words. ]
Yours?
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