Anemone From the Greek anemōnē, "daughter of thew ind." The Anemoi were four wind gods in Greek mythology. Protection against evil or ill wishes. Red: Death or forsaken love
...Only two of us were able to leave the room, after it started burning. [And there were not two of them, though he doesn't say who was with them.] I thought--it seemed like my seal was working again, so I told her to go. I wouldn't have died. [Well. He's not confident about that at all, actually, and he'd been kind of terrified--more that he'd condemned Lavi to burn with him than for himself, even. But he doesn't say that either.] But she came back.
[And it had stung to see it, even though she'd only made the same choice he had. Even if it's not his job, even if he's made it abundantly clear that he isn't a protector or a hero, it still feels a little like failing her.]
[this sounds familiar to what daan told her about his last week, but she doesn't say so.]
...you went in together. It shouldn't be too much of a surprise she tried to make sure you'd leave together. But at the same time...it's hard knowing that a choice like that puts both of you in danger instead when you made that initial choice to protect other people. Or maybe it isn't like that at all for you, but...[she says it in a way to suggest that's what she's thinking might've been the issue here.]
[Make sure you'd leave together except that it was making sure their loved ones were safe and they'd both burn together in their stead, but he'd have to give her more details for that, and he won't.]
It's what helps me heal fast. [He says it more easily than he would have otherwise only because Lavi doxxed his regeneration during his murder trial.]
[kanda for fucks sake please use any words because she wants to actually know what you're talking about!!!]
Is that why everything looked like it was in pieces first? Is it something all of you have...? [she wasn't entirely listening during the trial, but also in general she'd ask.]
No. [On the bright side, he's not much of a liar; if he didn't want to tell her, he would just say "it's not your business."] It only happens when I use too much power.
[Which has only ever happened once before because despite what this place might make it seem, he's very strong and good at his job. But he's nerfed here anyway so it's a moot point.
......Apart from the fact that now he really doesn't know if he's going to have issues with Falling the second the nerf is undone but that is more than he cares to explain about both himself and the mechanics of his world so he just won't mention it at all]
I'm a little surprised it happened at all. All of our magic was still missing both when we broke into the bar here and when we disappeared through the fog on our trip. [it's just weird some abilities came through and others didn't.]
...you know that you can't stop people from worrying just by saying "don't worry about it", don't you?
[Which also should've been his sign that things weren't real, including the fact that Falling didn't work the same way he would've expected, but. Well. The mansion messed with his head, and he'd thought it meant the Overseers were finally doing something, and he'd been distracted trying to help Kate and Lavi, and--
[sure. he's not wrong, it's over now. everything that happened in there wasn't real at all, and yet...]
Physically it's over. You and Kate are back, and you won't have to go through that again. But...you're still thinking about it. Not exactly a thing to easily call quits.
[she lets him have his moment of peace. if only because she thinks it's probably very overwhelming no matter what. so they sit in the quiet near the spring, and aerith watches him for a moment before her eyes drift back to the pool.]
...take some time to recover. I'm not going to ask you to talk about the things you aren't ready for, but I do want you to know if you ever decide to, I'll listen. Even if it's just to say you don't know how to stop thinking about it.
[He won't take her up on it, since he barely even manages to do that kind of thing with people he's known for years and years. But at the very least, he'll remember the offer--and the kindness and respect that came with it.
FREES US BEFORE WE ALL BLOW UP FROM A BUTTER BOMB TOMORROW OR SOMETHING]
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...Only two of us were able to leave the room, after it started burning. [And there were not two of them, though he doesn't say who was with them.] I thought--it seemed like my seal was working again, so I told her to go. I wouldn't have died. [Well. He's not confident about that at all, actually, and he'd been kind of terrified--more that he'd condemned Lavi to burn with him than for himself, even. But he doesn't say that either.] But she came back.
[And it had stung to see it, even though she'd only made the same choice he had. Even if it's not his job, even if he's made it abundantly clear that he isn't a protector or a hero, it still feels a little like failing her.]
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...you went in together. It shouldn't be too much of a surprise she tried to make sure you'd leave together. But at the same time...it's hard knowing that a choice like that puts both of you in danger instead when you made that initial choice to protect other people. Or maybe it isn't like that at all for you, but...[she says it in a way to suggest that's what she's thinking might've been the issue here.]
Your seal?
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It's what helps me heal fast. [He says it more easily than he would have otherwise only because Lavi doxxed his regeneration during his murder trial.]
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Is that why everything looked like it was in pieces first? Is it something all of you have...? [she wasn't entirely listening during the trial, but also in general she'd ask.]
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No, just me. [...] It won't be a real problem here, so don't worry about it.
[Now that he knows the whole thing was fake, he can say that much.]
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Wait, is it usually a problem back home? ][he should not have said that because now she's gonna ask?]
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[Which has only ever happened once before because despite what this place might make it seem, he's very strong and good at his job. But he's nerfed here anyway so it's a moot point.
......Apart from the fact that now he really doesn't know if he's going to have issues with Falling the second the nerf is undone but that is more than he cares to explain about both himself and the mechanics of his world so he just won't mention it at all]
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...you know that you can't stop people from worrying just by saying "don't worry about it", don't you?
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[Which also should've been his sign that things weren't real, including the fact that Falling didn't work the same way he would've expected, but. Well. The mansion messed with his head, and he'd thought it meant the Overseers were finally doing something, and he'd been distracted trying to help Kate and Lavi, and--
He huffs a little, looking away.]
There's no reason to. It's over now.
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Physically it's over. You and Kate are back, and you won't have to go through that again. But...you're still thinking about it. Not exactly a thing to easily call quits.
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...take some time to recover. I'm not going to ask you to talk about the things you aren't ready for, but I do want you to know if you ever decide to, I'll listen. Even if it's just to say you don't know how to stop thinking about it.
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[He won't take her up on it, since he barely even manages to do that kind of thing with people he's known for years and years. But at the very least, he'll remember the offer--and the kindness and respect that came with it.
FREES US BEFORE WE ALL BLOW UP FROM A BUTTER BOMB TOMORROW OR SOMETHING]