Anemone From the Greek anemōnē, "daughter of thew ind." The Anemoi were four wind gods in Greek mythology. Protection against evil or ill wishes. Red: Death or forsaken love
[Me not getting to this tag until after Mathis's death like oh I guess Kanda technically did know what Gale said oops. Well it's fine. Short-term memory loss, or maybe he just doesn't have faith in this one because it seems more like speculation than what Gale says.
It also doesn't change the rest of it. Even today, Lavi being there for Mathis is just another example of why he might feel the need to stick around. Camille's life may not be on the line, but her emotional state is fragile; he knows, too, that Lavi is close to Gojo and Geto, though he doesn't know them well enough himself to know whether they'd want him to stay.
There are just too many unknowns, and all he can do is watch and wait. He's not good at that.]
...It doesn't matter. [How he feels about anything is irrelevant, ultimately.] Someone has to stay.
[And Kanda isn't a fair or just person, really; it's not about how do you weigh one life against others or anything like that. This is just the life of an Exorcist. He's never really gotten to have what he wanted, and he loses people all the time. Daisya's death was barely a year ago. This is no different than all he's ever known, and it's the very reason he doesn't get attached to people. All it ever does is get in the way of what needs to be done.
If he keeps telling himself that, he'll eventually believe it.]
[honestly i'd buy either from kanda, and it's not like aerith knows either. after so many weeks of this, it's always about believing it when you see it. she's an optimist through and through, someone who wants to believe everything will work out and the people they love won't have to keep suffering, but...time and time again she keeps being proven wrong.
still...]
It matters a little. Even if that's true, and even if someone has to stay...how does it help you to just ignore it? [she gets it. sometimes you have to fight back your own feelings to keep going, but she's not entirely sure kanda needs to do that right this second.]
They won't stay for long. We're still going to find a way to save them and bring all of us to one side. One way or another.
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It also doesn't change the rest of it. Even today, Lavi being there for Mathis is just another example of why he might feel the need to stick around. Camille's life may not be on the line, but her emotional state is fragile; he knows, too, that Lavi is close to Gojo and Geto, though he doesn't know them well enough himself to know whether they'd want him to stay.
There are just too many unknowns, and all he can do is watch and wait. He's not good at that.]
...It doesn't matter. [How he feels about anything is irrelevant, ultimately.] Someone has to stay.
[And Kanda isn't a fair or just person, really; it's not about how do you weigh one life against others or anything like that. This is just the life of an Exorcist. He's never really gotten to have what he wanted, and he loses people all the time. Daisya's death was barely a year ago. This is no different than all he's ever known, and it's the very reason he doesn't get attached to people. All it ever does is get in the way of what needs to be done.
If he keeps telling himself that, he'll eventually believe it.]
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still...]
It matters a little. Even if that's true, and even if someone has to stay...how does it help you to just ignore it? [she gets it. sometimes you have to fight back your own feelings to keep going, but she's not entirely sure kanda needs to do that right this second.]
They won't stay for long. We're still going to find a way to save them and bring all of us to one side. One way or another.