Oh, the former. I know there are things that would be much easier if I could remember everything I used to, but...I don't even know how to bring them back now. It took some time to realize they were being taken at all.
There are other things I could do if I found my match that would help my friends more, I think. But I still don't know if I want to find them. [...] Do you want to find yours?
And not a match, I take it. [...] It might not be bad to know at least a couple. I've exchanged a few times just to help other people find their matches if they want to.
No. I have a strategy for that! I just ask them to tell me first. If they aren't a match, I'll tell them mine. And if somehow they are and I'm not ready to match...I just won't tell them the truth. Not until I know how they feel about it.
[this memory feels a little bittersweet to her, if only because she can recognize some of the feelings in this and she thinks he can understand vin a little more now. she waits for it to finish, and when it peters out there's a soft sort of expression on her face as she looks at her.]
...Vin, may I ask you something? Who is it that you want to me? Not who you are now. But want for yourself, and your future.
You probably haven't had much time to really think about it, have you? [she considers the memory again.] Why were you pretending to be someone else for this king?
I see. [infiltration. she's done a bit of it, too (barely. in her mind it counts though), so she can understand that much.] But it sounds as though...he knows you as yourself now? And still wants to know you better.
[she could leave it there, but she presses just enough.]
[...she doesn't know enough to refute that, so she nods.]
I think making a decision like that for yourself is a step in knowing who you want to be. But only if it's for the right reasons. When you know how things have gone, and you have those experiences, instead of breaking away because of an outlier of a situation.
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There are other things I could do if I found my match that would help my friends more, I think. But I still don't know if I want to find them. [...] Do you want to find yours?
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It isn't worth the risk, for me.
[but she understands why that would be different for others.]
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[she doesn't get to continue because it's memshare time!!]
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...Vin, may I ask you something? Who is it that you want to me? Not who you are now. But want for yourself, and your future.
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...I don't know.
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You probably haven't had much time to really think about it, have you? [she considers the memory again.] Why were you pretending to be someone else for this king?
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[she could leave it there, but she presses just enough.]
What makes you think he needs someone else?
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...A few things have happened since that memory. Maybe I need someone different, too.
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I think making a decision like that for yourself is a step in knowing who you want to be. But only if it's for the right reasons. When you know how things have gone, and you have those experiences, instead of breaking away because of an outlier of a situation.