Digitalis Old English folklore said that foxes wore the flowers on their paws to silence movement and stealthily stalk prey. Healing, pain, insincerity, insecurity
Probably. He's been gone for a few years so, logically, showing up now makes no sense. But you know how these things are. Even the dead can come back and still walk around as if they never left at all.
[she frowns a little deeper though.]
...tea for both of us? I found out they make electric kettles, so there's one in the cabinet. I think falling asleep is a bad idea because I don't want to wake up in the lab again. Again, I know that's unlikely now that we're here but...how can we really know?
That sounds great. Everything should be over there. [pointing to a cabinet across the room that does in fact have an electric kettle and some scaresco tea. she's still focusing on this puzzle cube.]
...if I'm being completely honest, I don't think I've been at peace since we've come here. [well, no, that's not right.] Or more like...there were still things that couldn't be at peace by being here at all.
I'd have to commend anyone who's managed to find peace here. It's probably the most incredible feat yet.
[ Pouring them both tea. Wow, electric kettles so convenient. I don't want to think about whether it exists in his anachronistic 1942, just makes it exist. ]
[me any time zia and i have to figure out what technology or wildlife the 7s actually know because it's such a mix bag. kind of like how aerith has never seen a sheep in her life. tea is nice. she's even sitting up a little higher, tilting sideways to prop herself against the headboard.]
Don't get me wrong. I think you can find peace in a lot of things. And I think you can lay a lot of things to rest with time. But I also think this place is good at digging at specific problems without giving people time to solve them. You keep trying, because it's important not to give up, but it starts feeling a little targeted after a while.
Personally, I think it's felt pretty targeted since the very beginning.
[ But not everyone comes from a Silent Hill / Bloodborne-inspired canon that has basically the literal exact same premise of the entire mg so understandable... he is the freak.
He comes back with a perfectly brewed tea though, two of them. Depression be damned this boy knows how to make a drink. ]
I do think you have just a few specific circumstances, Daan. [honestly this is such a valuable skill and she takes the tea with a nod of gratitude and a little "thank you." puzzle cube goes in her lap for a second, about 1/3 of the way complete.]
The longer we've been here the more overlap we're finding with each other whether that's from people we're fighting or places we've been or experiences we've gone through. It's just unfortunate some of you were more targeted than others.
Everything here feels like a lesson in learning how to adapt, because if you don't it's going to be much harder. But I still think...other people can make their lives better. Even with these circumstances.
I know. [and she does, to an extent.] Even if it isn't right, it can be too easy to fall into a pattern of acceptance. And it takes a lot to turn it around.
But I do think some things can still change, even if it's impossible.
I do, just like you know what kind of argument I'd give you. [there's a little grin.] Maybe all I can really do is believe it enough for other people, even if it might not change things for me.
Something like that. [sips her tea.] All the more reason I'll keep having that faith for the people who can't find it themselves yet. Even if it's hard right now.
...As long as you're not stretching yourself thin to care for others. Need to fix yourself up first before you can help others. Usual principle rule of places like the war field.
...to be honest with you, Daan, I'm not sure I know how to not do that sometimes. [she's used to stretching herself thin to take care of other people.] But it's something to work on. I know.
...I think a few of us need to learn to understand that better. [people who do their jobs well, who reach out to others constantly, but at the same time often are stretched so thin that they're not even sure who or what they are anymore.]
Another one of those things that's one day at a time. Right?
I wouldn't be opposed to an overnight change, but realistically, probably one day at a time, yeah.
[ This thread is also old but he can't leave since he said he'd stay with her until she felt better so they can just chatter long until she feels alright. ]
[it's fine, they chatter and drink tea and she fails at a puzzle cube until cloud comes back and/or she drifts off on her own. daan is a good egg. sets this thread free too gooby.]
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[she frowns a little deeper though.]
...tea for both of us? I found out they make electric kettles, so there's one in the cabinet. I think falling asleep is a bad idea because I don't want to wake up in the lab again. Again, I know that's unlikely now that we're here but...how can we really know?
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We can have it until you feel better and at peace, Cloud returns, or you do end up nodding off peacefully.
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...if I'm being completely honest, I don't think I've been at peace since we've come here. [well, no, that's not right.] Or more like...there were still things that couldn't be at peace by being here at all.
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I'd have to commend anyone who's managed to find peace here. It's probably the most incredible feat yet.
[ Pouring them both tea. Wow, electric kettles so convenient. I don't want to think about whether it exists in his anachronistic 1942, just makes it exist. ]
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Don't get me wrong. I think you can find peace in a lot of things. And I think you can lay a lot of things to rest with time. But I also think this place is good at digging at specific problems without giving people time to solve them. You keep trying, because it's important not to give up, but it starts feeling a little targeted after a while.
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[ But not everyone comes from a Silent Hill / Bloodborne-inspired canon that has basically the literal exact same premise of the entire mg so understandable... he is the freak.
He comes back with a perfectly brewed tea though, two of them. Depression be damned this boy knows how to make a drink. ]
Careful, still hot.
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The longer we've been here the more overlap we're finding with each other whether that's from people we're fighting or places we've been or experiences we've gone through. It's just unfortunate some of you were more targeted than others.
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[ He hasn't lived a normal life in ever. ]
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[please try to find some happiness sir. begging.]
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[ Look at him, just resigned to his shitty cult death life at this point. There is not a lack of trying... I will tell you that much... ]
Or some things were just always a certain way.
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But I do think some things can still change, even if it's impossible.
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It's a nice thing to believe in. If not for yourself, for others. No need to pull others into the same darkness.
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I don't want to be gone anymore. [which she doesn't really elaborate on, but it's more said to herself than anything.] ...but I understand.
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[ Even as vague as it is, is it strange to say that he understands it? ]
Understanding it is at least one major step to it all.
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Another one of those things that's one day at a time. Right?
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[ This thread is also old but he can't leave since he said he'd stay with her until she felt better so they can just chatter long until she feels alright. ]
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